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I had a vision. 

It was all about you. 

And here’s a little snippet of what I saw. 

Everything that has come before this moment…

• all your trauma and disappointments
• everything that was painful or shitty about your childhood
• the very identity of your ancestors and their gifts and painful pasts
• every toxic energy exchange you’ve been on either end of
• all of human history, in fact, including the arcs of slavery, patriarchy, toxic capitalism, art, beauty, justice, truth, science…

…all of it. 

Every day of every decade you have lived in this LIFE….

…all of that was just the journey. 

I don’t say “just” to trivialize it. 

I say “just because we’ve all been on this journey and, like Londyn says when we get home… 

We have arrived. 

And all of that history, all of that memory—it wants to be surrendered. 

It wants to be given back to the infinite… to the cosmic powers that be. 

If you dare to let go of whatever history you think defines you—whatever history you think limits you—it will dissolve into wisdom, it will dissolve into power, it will dissolve into clarity, it will dissolve into energy, and all of those eons will be distilled down and focused down into a single kernel of a seed.

From that seed will grow your real life—Your Unlived Life.

The unfulfilled greatness you’ve been alternately running from or pining for, your whole life?

It will become your real life if you let the fear be what it be, which is just a program. 

Real life starts where the fear ends. 

The Infinite Intelligence that programmed one sperm and one ovum to combine and become the trillions of glorious you cells and skin and organs and brain and lungs and ideas and life’s work and line of descendants, even, will grow something as towering and alive and life-giving as the 2,000 foot tall majestic California redwoods from the single seed of your past and your dreams. 

So it helps to know that the anatomy of every seed that has ever existed is tripartite: 

Part I: An embryonic plant

Part II: Some food for the embryo

Part III: Is a coat. 

Your dreams are the embryonic plant. And I’m talking about the Big Dreams, like making a movie, and the dreams that feel big to you, like: being at ease in your own skin, finding inner peace and building a thriving, liberated family of thriving, liberated children. 

Whatever feels alive and elusive for you.  

So whenever you are unsure what your dreams really are, your first step must always be to let yourself want what you really want. 

If you’ve tried to let yourself try for it a million times and failed, you’re probably on the right track.

If the dream is so big it sounds batshit crazy, you’re almost certainly on the right track. 

If you feel unclear, catch this principle: Commitment IS clarity. 

Try just committing to letting yourself want what you want for now. 

Just decide that there’s no going back from desiring what you truly desire from here, even if you’re currently in a day job or a shadow life that feels worlds away from the dream. 

Just let yourself want it and commit to just that, for now. 

Okay so…what’s the food part of the seed?

The trauma is the food. 

All your ancestral trauma… all the collective human trauma. 

All your individual trauma and painful memories, they want to have what Dave Richo calls their career within you. 

They want to become food for your future, like in this stanza from my favorit Antonio Machado poem, where he writes: 

Last night as I was sleeping,

I dreamt—marvelous error!—

that I had a beehive

here inside my heart.

And the golden bees

were making white combs

and sweet honey

from my old failures.

But to get the nourishment out of the trauma and pain, you have to be willing to face and embrace and integrate the pain. 

You have to metabolize it, like your body does food.

And that process takes time. You have to come to a place of peace with letting it take the time it takes. 

For me, it’s been like, maybe 30 years. 

So you have to continue processing your old, unprocessed trauma and then simultaneously use the skills you gain doing that to process, in real time, the new trauma that comes along with living daily human life on Planet Earth. 

And then to get maximum nutrition out of this, you also have to avoid the very common dream-killing thing of making your healing from trauma be a prerequisite for stepping into your powers and cultivating your dreams. 

You have to be moving into your dreams at the same time as you process the unprocessed, because the trauma healing is an ongoing part of the human journey, and because there are some un-traumatizing things, some parts of the process of rewiring your old traumatized relational templates with life that you can only do as you take scary steps forward and see what gets stirred up and what new synapses and feedback loops start to connect. 

Okay. Part 3 of the seed is a coat. 

The coat is the blessing of sacred alignment. 

Your alignment with the holy, the special and the meaningful.

Your alignment with your own sacred contracts. Your alignment with the unique spirit and personality you came here with—your alignment with the unique glory of you and how you came here to benefit all of humanity. 

Your True, Sacred Self. The Divinity within you. The Divinity that is you.

The coat of protection around your embryonic dream and its good is the alignment between your life and how you spend it with the uniquely genius expression of your gifts that is only possible when you stop performing for external validation and get in the flow of being, doing, creating, learning, actualizing, aligning. 

Back in the 1900s, the old Black preachers would talk about how a seed has to die for the plant to be born. 

And that’s not entirely accurate. 

The coat of the seed doesn’t die when the plant is mature. The coat is shed when the baby embryo plant is ready to start growing up in earnest.

The coating provides protection as long as necessary, until it falls away to reveal the nourished, fed embryo plant—still a tiny baby plant—so that plant can get rained on and sunshined on and germinated and pollinated. 

In other words, if you’re waiting to be ready to start doing your dreams, you’re waiting way too long, [First Name].

In one path of the Vajrayana Tibetan Buddhist tradition, the ultimate level of awakening is known as attaining the rainbow body. 

See, the Vajrayana lineage sees our human, physical bodies as the creative output of the elements of the cosmos having been bathing in radiant, bright light for eons and eons. 

So when an awakening human being steps through the final threshold of enlightenment, their physical body “dies” and the resulting illumination is literal: their bodies are said to dis-integrate into rainbows, leaving nothing but hair, fingernails, teeth and clothes behind. 

So right now, as you begin to step into the threshold of 2022 and all the awakening I declare it will hold for you, I want you to simply set the intention to let some things die a mini version of the rainbow “death”. 

Let whatever limiting personal mythology you’ve been living…

Whatever stories you tell about who you are… 

Whatever you’ve been doing to stay on the human suffering hamster wheel for money, status, prestige, external admiration…

Let that shit stay in place only for as long as you need to for the unedited dream to get as nourished as it needs to be to be in tiny seedling form so it can come out and get rained on and sunshined on and pollinated into, so it can grow.

(And not one minute longer than that.)

Then let the small you slowly, gradually dis-integrate and fall away to reveal the Big Dream that’s been beneath, all this time. 

And let that be a rainbow death, where the hamster wheel small version of you dissolves and disintegrates to liberate Your Big Self—a glorious energy body in the form of a radiant, colorful light show that takes your own breath away and feels like a gift to glimpse your own eyes in the mirror. 

I declare that 2022 is for nourishing your REAL dreams.

The big ones. 

So right now, begin the process of tuning into what your real dream is, and let yourself begin to fall in love with that future. 

Can you do that for me? 

More importantly, can you do that for YOU?

Head up + heart out,

PS: In case you missed it…

Here’s the story of me and The Most Reverend Desmond Tutu.

And here’s what Londyn’s been manifesting lately.

Stay tuned for my first Metaphysician Movie Review, where I’ll illuminate the archetypes and Spiritual Strategy takeaways from Disney’s Encanto… wouldn’t hurt you to watch it now to get ready!

Tara-Nicholle Kirke, MA, Esq.
The Inner Critic Coach
Founder + CEO of SoulTour

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